WriterDragon

Why is sta.sh acting so weird? It was all organized before then suddenly it all changed, and won't let me fix it. q-q

I went to bed unhappy and woke up unhappy.......Yay.

I'm frustrated that things keep going wrong, sore from not sleeping right, my heads killing me and I just wanna cry for being so whiney and why life right now keeps beating on me!
Sorry for whining and venting right now...for some reason in the last couple hours, everything has made me feel either worthless or being used, like my family doesn't care...I'm gonna go cry now, and maybe finally eat, who knows.

Being consumed by so much fear and anxiety, plus depression, is so bad for someone's body that's it's pretty much a literal sickness; at least that's how I feel for me..

Every time I get any kind of notification, from anyone random and I don't know, I immediately block them from being so scared! I can' trust anyone, other then people people i've known since I being on this site. None of this is healthy, i'm so tired of constantly being afraid of everything and everyone, i'm so tired of it all....

I'm scared of everything, everyone, of what I might do even now, it's so hard to get through the days..I wanna cry..

My anxiety is literally going CRAZY, i'm so nervous and scared, and jittery, and worried, I just wanna cry and scream, yell, run, I FEEL LIKE I'M LOSING MY MIND AND I NOTHING IS HELPING!!! I feel so utterly helpless, like nothing matter's anymore and it's all pointless in life, my chest hurts and I wanna cry, but I CAN'T because I know it's not going to help me!

I can't tell my family because nothing they say calms me down or helps me, i'm getting so scared of everything that and getting worked up, I can't take it! I'm just venting because I have nothing else left to do! My body isn't handling all this anxiety, fear, depression, sadness, worry, at all! It's just failing instead of improving!!

What can I do now?! I'm not saying any of this with a light tone, I'm going to see a therapist but instead of being ready or hoping to get help, i'm just more scared!! I don't know anymore of anything! I think everyone is going to hurt me, even people on here! It's like a growing poison at the back of my mind, always cruel "what if's" I have a phobia of people...to make everything even worse.

I'm so scared and sad of everything, i'm worried and depressed, nothing feels like it's worth anything, everything just keeps getting worse and worse...I don't know anymore, I just don't. I wanna cry and throw up..My stomach isn't coping. 

Can someone just help me? Say something? Please...I need it..Please..